The words laid out to her, ripped my heart out.

I never do take my life seriously. I never really took people's words to heart, both good and bad. But just days ago, i learnt that what really pokes and pushes my fucking red button is the way how the low lives lay down crude words on the people i care and love the most. Especially you babe, especially you.

ask.fm - 'Ask and answer questions. Find out what people think about you!'

Yes, i signed up for that. Ballsy enough, i allowed anonymous questions. I signed up for this because ash showed me some sweet questions that we never thought people would ask. Curious as i was, i wanted to know what would be at the end of my line too. Below are some of the significant ones.

"pls stop flooding my timeline with pictures of you and your fat ugly girlfriend";

"Answer the question directly, there's no need to show off your english, you're just a another stupid poly kid and so is stupid ashley. I agree with you anon:)" ;

"yeah as if you got life sia, just one ugly bitch for the rest of your life, good luck" ;

"your blog is horrible eww";

"come on la, instead of trying show off your english go on and fuck ashley"; 

"does ashley moan when you fuck her?";

"you should teach ashley how to slim down"; 

"you are probably after ashley's money and pussy"

Meanwhile on Ashley's side, which cut me wide open:

"I'm someone in your poly class and i secretly hate you"; 

"If you guys wanna take a kissing picture and post it on the internet, do it without the saliva and tongue? Just a peck, why so disgusting"; 

"How do you feel when nicholas fucks you?"; 

"You and nicholas are the best couple ever. Both are horrendously ugly, despo for sex and disgusting."; 

"On your blogpost, you mentioned about nic that "forgets that I'm a girl sometimes and violently abuses me;" Abuses your pussy??? And tear your body parts you mean your pussy as well? Omg violent shit";

"Spit or swallow? I'm guessing you swallow:)";

"I heard that people who have regular sex, their thighs really grow enermous overnight and your thighs were so slim when you were in sec 1, now its getting bigger and bigger after you and nicholas got together. You are gross."; 

"You really got no life other than your boyfriend you know, one day he kenna accident and die then you really loner liao"; 

"You really shouldn't offend me bitch";

"i think you cried while reading all these harsh comments and nicholas starts fucking you to cheer you up"

Fat, ugly, stupid. These are the most used words by the Rat. I just want to make things clear to you little Rat. Ashley is nowhere near fat, ugly nor stupid. She was nowhere close to tears reading your posts, stop thinking so highly of yourself and your post.

Dear fucking Rat,

My answers to your question weren't even out to offend you bitch. But one thing is for fucking sure that is when i know who you are, i will offend you directly and openly with my name attached to every word that i let loose. You claim you have friends, you have more than us, you look down upon us calling us ugly, gross, and stupid, as though you have a perfectly arranged face, a proper and honorable human character and a brilliant mind that surpasses both of us added up. You even said "just another stupid poly kid" which i inferred that you're despising all polytechnic students when saying "just another". Where are your friends then? With the claim of you having a large circle of friends, what would they think when you categorise them as "stupid kids"? That aside, with the substantial amount of "friends" you claim to have around you, why aren't you hanging out with them? Instead of lurking behind a brightly lid screen in a shady and poorly furnished room (my impression of you at the moment), seeking answers and bothering the people you hate.

If you had friends, why would our photos which are not being posted very frequently be flooding your fucking timeline? Unless you haven't have as much friends as you claim you do. Why do you spend so much time reading both our blogs and pestering us on ask.fm? You keep quoting, "on your blogpost"; "that time i saw on your blog"; "your blog so gross"; "your blog so eww"; what is the main purpose of harping that you read our blog? Okay, we get it, you're our number 1 hater, are you expecting plaque for that? A shout out on one of our post perhaps? Not many people bother to read our blog anyways, the main purpose we both decided to have a blog is to have something to look back to as we grow. Something to reflect on ; how we've changed and what we've been through. But to be a hater's number 1 visited site, i am truly appalled. You clearly follow Ash on Instagram, noticing all her photos of herself and us, Observing her thighs from Secondary 1. Which brings me about my craziest discovery which is that DA FUCK DO YOU KEEP LOG OF MY GIRL'S THIGH DIMENSION FROM 2007 TILL TODAY. They grew thicker and larger? Even i don't realize any change being with her almost everyday for more than half a decade. Talk about having a life. Ashley has no life other than her boyfriend and that if he would to have died one day she would be loner for life - SAYS THE FUCKING RAT WHO TRACKS EVERY CYBER ACTIVITY THAT ASHLEY MAKES ONLINE. What a fruitful life to lead.

Plus, i realized you have been utterly keen on our intimate side of life. Asking her how she feels when i fuck her? WTF? You seem to care more than i do about how she feels. Whether not she moans, whether it cheers her up, asking us to do the act at your command. Take a fucking breather and try, at least try to know where the fuck you are coming from. A person that takes full pride when anonymously commanding mindlessly to a couple who doesn't even care about your existence (until now, that is). You, little rat have an issue.

Our looks, our kisses, our photos, our fucks bothers you till the extend of you ranting out all the held up feeling and emotions kept in your low-life heart from the time when Ashley was in Secondary fucking 1 till now. 2007~present. And you my dear rat, holds no fucking meaning in our life  We might have scrolled pass your photos, criticizing it between us or even liking it, but it never have bothered us till this extent.

Ash and i took the time to reflect and question ourselves as to why a random 'friend' of ours would be so offended till the extent of hating the nuts out of us. We simply can't find a close match. All we've done is to just be like any loving couple. Posting ridiculously disgusting photos without the consent of our single minglers. And trust me, i've seen photos captioned with overly sweet words that even i do not have the power to do so. All we've came up with is that we're just being together happily and enjoying our company together, regardless or not whether the Rat thinks it's no life, to me, its the most colorful part of my life since. Even lusting couples desire the intimate sharing, what more a loving couple.

From what you've posted on ask.fm and all the replies you've crafted out; you should know that...

You are the one who is Gross

You are the one who is Ugly at heart

You are the one who is Disgusting

You are the one who is Horrendous

You are the one who is really offended and affected

You are the ultimate true loner

Wag your tongue about how we flood your timeline, but the truth is that you will never unfollow us . Because besides us, what else do you have left in your life.

Make a true ballsy move. End the anonymity, meet ash and i in real life, discrete or blatant, your choice.

Yours fucking truly

Chan Zhi Hao Nicholas

Three cheers for Five years*

To find and share every moment with That special someone within our all so short lifetime should be a privilege that every person should be able to do. 

Today, I have spent 61 adventurous months with mine. Gazillion moments have been created and shared between us. Yes, there were the downs between us too, and I've chosen to view those downs as learning points for our r/s. I am here now, proud and elated to share with everyone that Ashley Yeo Sihui have been my special someone for these past years~

A selfie she took years ago, which I am not suppost to share! But here~
[P/S you look beautiful babe, don't you worry.]

I give my heart out to this girl as an offering for her Time, her Love, her Patience she has for a troublesome me. I really wanted to write a nice long read-ie post but just can't find the words to fill the spaces! Here's some pictures to help me get along.

Our young faces long before we even met

On my 17th at USS

2011 - the transitional period from secondary to tertiary education
Tough times :( but we made it :)

Getting ridiculously close by the day

The ability to try everything possible that the world has to offer

x

That animal fanatic in her which I truly adore

Her very own four-legged bff

revvvvv nic

Just another night

 1. Three things I want to say to three different people.

"I need you right here by me."
"You be a good and healthy boy, and get out of trouble's way."
"I miss your howls, we really all miss you."

 2. One of my insecurities.

My right eye.

 3. What turns me on.

Ashley Yeo Sihui.

 4. One of my bad habits.

Adjusting my **** in public.

 5. Who I wish I could be.

Tony Stark.

 6. Where I want to be right now.

In our future mansion.

 7. The last thing I ate.

Curry buffalo wing.

 8. Sexiest person that comes to my mind immediately.

Ashley Yeo Sihui.

 9. What song I’m currently listening to.

"Somewhere with you" - Tyler Ward.

 10. The last time I cried and why.

31st May, we quarreled real bad. I'm sorry my love.

 11. Something I’m excited about.

Fast and Furious 7!

 12. 5 things I like about myself and 5 things I dislike about myself.

Likes: My sense of responsibility, my lips, my knowledge about cars, my brows, my (i dunno anymore, plus i feel very weird finding things i like about myself).
Dislikes: My skinny self, my right eye, my nose, my hairiness (I'm afraid of the pain waxing brings >.<)

 13. Three things I want right now.

Her to be my wifey, a Lamborghini Aventador, my license.

 14. Are you wearing a necklace, who got it for you, where’s it from?

A black toothed necklace, my girlfriend, Bankok.

 15. How long was your last phone conversation?

42 seconds.

 16. What are you looking forward to?

The time we settle down.

 17. Did you get anything off your chest today?

Nope, nothing on my chest so far.

 18. How many rings do you usually wear? 

Zero. I'm sorry baby.

 19. Would you rather go to Canada or California on vacation?

California!

 20. Are you wearing jeans, shorts, sweatpants or pajama pants?

None... wrapped in my bath towel about to bathe.

 21. Are you an emotional person?

Not really.

 22. It’s 2 in the morning and you get a text message, who is it most likely from?

Ashley Yeo Sihui, or some random people who are interested in buying my fishes.

 23. Do you like long car rides?

Yes, but has to be fast.

 24. Do you have an adult you can talk to about anything?

No.

 25. Last time you saw your dad?

In the morning.

 26. Have you ever kissed someone in a vehicle?

Yep.

 27. Do you do your own laundry?

Yep, started only recently.

 28. Would you like the ability to read minds?

Not really after some thought, I would rather trust the people around me.

 29. Has the last person you kissed ever seen you cry?

Yes.

 30. You’re thinking about a certain person right now, aren’t you? 

Yes, yes i am.

 31. What will you be doing in five years?

Earning some decent bucks.

 32. Last 2 people to text you?

Ash and Dennis.

 33. Do you know what you want to be when you grow up?

No clue.

 34. Do you like to cuddle?

Only with her.

 35. Did anyone see you kiss the last person you kissed on the lips?

I think so?

revvvvv, nic

I just felt like it

Spending a night with friends

Or studying in my living room's bench

Nothing beats the time spent

With the girl I'll never forget

We met years back

And the moments we've shared

Could still be remembered

Like its a couple days back

A lesson at ten

Forces me to end

This very first poem

I've written by hand

Rarely, but surely.

Get

well

soon

my

dear

girl

<3

Her presence... Wow.

Hey honey, this one's for you; again.

With her blogging once is awhile these days really makes me wanna blog too. I really need to thank my dear girl. Her presence calms my hectic world, a world so tough that one would lose his individuality. Time slows whenever she's around, till the extend that anyones's trouble would feel non-existent. She's always bubbly; well she have her ugly moments but i'll leave that aside;  but her bubbliness is that one true factor that i hope she won't change.

My dear Siberian Husky isn't doing well. He's deteriorating everyday. I can't even recall when was the last time i heard his howl. I miss it. Too quiet, too restless. His costly meds have ended, I'm worried, my brothers are too. My once healthy; active and mischievous boy is gone. Every morning I would have to mop the bloody floors, literally. Blood. Is. Everywhere. It's a hurtful sight, therefore its always a bad start these days. 

This is the part she steps in. Budwig diet is a diet that is for dogs who are going through cancer and is not a useless cancer prevention diet. It is a cancer fighter diet which requires the canine to follow through with its daily meals. I was worried, everyone was. But it was her who took the damn effort to research into the horrible fuck that is happening to my baby boy's mouth. Apparently, the result she found was quite interesting. It is quite a common disease for dogs and there are many people out there who practices this diet. I don't know if it will work but its definitely a relief that she found out that there's such a diet.

See, stuff like that really makes me appreciate her more and more even though we've been together for a lloonngg time. She puts me before everything, and sometimes i feel i can't do the same for her. Yes, i guess i'm a badder partner. This post is so messy, i cant even see the flow. 

Tomorrow is school day, and it sucks.

Baby girl,

thank you for all the time you've devoted for me.

Honey i'm so grateful

i've found you,

nothing can ever replace you,

nothing.

revvvvv nic